Tami Roman is taking everything in after miscarrying what would have been her and boyfriend Reggie Youngblood’s first child. The Love & Hip Hop star took to Instagram to share her feelings this past weekend.

“As I sat trying to find the reason, the why, the how come…I remained at a loss for words. My emotions were high and my spirit was low. I don’t think anyone will understand the sadness that I felt,” shared Tami.

The star went on to tell fans that she miscarried her child on her late mother’s birthday, which made the experience even more challenging. “My mother has been gone for two years and I feel she has missed being apart of so many wonderful moments in my life and the lives of my daughters. She didn’t get to meet the man I love and she would’ve really liked Reggie.”

Tami further explained, “This is a lesson in love and loss. This is another test of my faith and my strength. I got to a place of eerie calm, believing the spirit of my unborn child is with my mom. I don’t know, it made me feel better believing that a part of me is keeping her company.”

Although she told fans that she still didn’t understand why she lost her unborn child, Roman expressed optimism for the future. “The loss has shown me how much I would love to be a mother again,” shared the star. “I know that I am stronger than this situation and I’m not giving up.”

Tami Roman is already the proud mother of two kids. She and Reggie Youngblood hope to expand their family in the near future.