Chrisean Rock recently took to Instagram to announce that she is 20 weeks pregnant. In the same post, she revealed that she is no longer with the father of her child, BlueFace. She shared her mixed emotions about the pregnancy and how she had to pray to overcome her fear of being a mother.
Chrisean wrote, “Sheesh I’m 20 weeks already but When I seen the face of what was growing inside of me I had to pray the fear away of being a mommy.”
She further shared that her pregnancy was planned, but due to the trust issues between her and Blue Face, she was left with the option of aborting. However, upon seeing her baby’s face and hearing its heartbeat, she instantly fell in love and decided to move forward with the pregnancy.
“I was surprised I’m that far along that it’s no turning back from being a mommy. I instantly fell in love when I saw the face n heard the heart beat…The bad thoughts like ‘I don’t want to be rock anymore, I don’t want to be famous, I F’$%ed up, I should have stayed in school” but I had to separate my heartbreak from the biggest thing that I prayed for n in da beginning.”
Despite the heartbreak of the relationship ending, Chrisean shared that she is excited about her journey through the ups and downs of this experience. She plans to document her pregnancy on @thezeusnetwork, which she admits is overwhelming, but she is determined not to let fear stop her.
“I’m not gonna move out of fear. I’m ok with moving on. I’m ok with letting go anything that’s not for me. Having a child won’t stop me from making money, learning, developing more love, and time for myself. I don’t need a dollar from anyone to be here for this child,” she wrote.
